我受够了远距离

我受够了在我需要你的时候 我永远都找不到你

我受够了我们之间的对白只剩下幻想场景

我受够了每晚都那么不安的入眠

我不安

我看不见你

我不知道你最近怎么样了

我忘了你长什么样子

我忘了你的高度

我忘了你身上的味道

我更忘了你的体温

我胡思乱想 让你觉得不舒服

可我是真的真的很在乎

在乎的程度 我没办法表达出来

我也只能说抱歉

是我不够成熟 对不起

忘了什么时候开始

视线没办法从你身上移开

忘了什么时候开始

心没办法再容下任何一个人 除了你

忘了什么时候开始

我开始放下一切 来爱你

曾经不会把时间花在写博客上

也不知道是什么时候开始

会为了你 把时间都用到博客上了

你很特别

脑袋最近学会了胡思乱想

把自己搞累

更让你辛苦了

有时候多希望把自己的脑袋给砸了多好

答应过你不会胡思乱想的

可是 米安

还是想了好多 好多

是太久没见面了吗?

答应过你 不管发生什么事情都会告诉你

可是 米安

我做不到...

没办法 告诉你

我有多担心我们哪天会结束

我有多担心我们哪天会因为吵架 然后选择放手

我有多担心我们因为距离的问题 然后就这么结束

听你说哪个女生好漂亮 然后假装配合你说 她真的好漂亮

其实你不懂 我的心在淌血

其实你不知道 我有多么想马上找到你

然后对你说你是我的 你只属于我

能不能不要注意其他的女生?

写着这篇博客 

心有多无助 你不知道

对 我又找不到你了

脑袋又胡思乱想了

你在哪里?

然后又会想说是不是又再给你压力了

然后又会一个人抱膝痛哭

然后又再想自己到底哪里做错了

觉得自己好多余

看看你的生活

其实没有我也会很精彩

想说

谢谢你的笑容一直在鼓励着我

一直告诉我

"放心 你还有我"

可是你对我越好

我却越不自在

深怕 自己的小姐脾气又会开始被你宠出来

深怕 自己会开始对你的要求越来越高

深怕 哪天你会因为这样离开

不想失去你

是我目前最大的愿望

嘻嘻哈哈的谈话内容

你不知道我在背后哭得有多痛

想回曾经你说过

会选择我是因为年龄比你大

思想会比较成熟不会乱闹

可是 米安

我会 闹

会为了一点小事吵得翻天覆地

会为了一点小事抱膝痛哭

我没有很成熟

没能像其他人的姐弟恋一样

那么成熟稳定

我没信心能一直拥有你

就连你要离开了

只敢看着你的背后抽泣

其实有多想紧紧抱着你

说 我有多不想你离开

求你留下来

在朋友面前的形象不顾了

哭得 稀里哗啦

不是形象不顾了

是眼泪不受控制 蜂拥而出了

对不起。

Haizz..

原本就是可以录音的

就都怪自己太笨...

Arghhhhhhhh!

崩溃死我惹! T^T

我知道我的样子有点

囧.../.\

挑逗胡嘉祯的眼神还真的不能看

无视吧

因为我也不知道要怎么遮 /.\

后面蒙蒙的部分原本是要剪掉的啦

剪了 却po个半天都po不上

所以就决定Po原影片了 /.\

他很爱念

从头念到尾的功夫真的不是盖的 /.\

而且刚刚剪头发的他很像 愤怒的小鸟! xD

有老虎牙的 愤怒小鸟

他的花名长到我记不起来了 /.\

他很好恋的以为我在拍他..

其实我是在录影!!

Paboo yahh! xD

原谅我蛤 x)

你知道的

你实在太会念人了

所以必须录下来 免得下次你耍赖 xP

可是白痴没把声音给录下来!! T^T

算了算了...

我忍忍忍忍忍忍忍~

一定还有下次!

>______________<

Please stop ordering me to do anything I don't wish to do

It's tiring me

I got my own way to go 

I'm not a 3-year-old baby

I can plan anything what I wanna do and what I suppose to do

Stop asking me to study again and again!

I know it might be your regret for not treasure the time you can study

But that's you not me

I know what should I do!

Mummy, 

I grew up and I wish to decide my own may to fight for my future

Please, just let go, I'm tired

Tired of those stupid reality social

Tired of those stupid so called "knowledge means everything"

I know what are you doing for me now

It's for my own good

But please 

Look around 

You're protecting me for too over

I can't even live by myself

Even one breath I can't take by own

I just need one freedom breath 

Thanks God for bringing me to know him through fully his heart and mind.

He is so sweet and lovely

He cures my imperfections, mistakes and flaws, ♥

Although he is younger than me

But he is trying to protect me and teaching me everything what he knows

Feel so grateful to know him in my life

Even though we are not perfect

Somehow we are fighting with each other just because of little tiny things

We are having long distance relationship

Somehow distance will make us went through troubles and problems

We can't meet and hear each other voices for at least 2 weeks

We had fight through texts and calls without knowing each other emotions 

We are not believing each other (sometime)

Just because we're not living together yet too far away

But we take it as a training

Train to have a better future which is including each other

Train to be more tough to go through those stupid troubles and problems with hand in hand

Putting much and much effort just because wanna grow up together

And learning how to take care each other

162 days,

not too long yet too short

Proving to love him more and more

deeper and deeper

I'm telling you Babe, ♥

No matter what's going on

I'm here to be with you

Not me but my soul

It's the same, haha

Cheer up for your national competition

It might be your last time to attend this kind of competition

Try your best and best

I trust that you can do it better 

All the best from Terengganu-Your hometown

I'm here for you

And sorry for can't attend and giving you cheers in live

Love yahh! ♥

You're the best boyfie I met in my life

Thanks for stepping in

Thanks for protecting our loves

 Blessing to be with you, Babe ♥